The Boy Who Could But Didn't
Blog URL http://benleto.com/blog
Located London, London United Kingdom
Tags writer, author, struggling, new, gay, depression, first time, transgressive, transgressional
The literary struggle of a lazy part-time genius
Latest Blog Posts
- Death of the Novelist #5 on Aug 9, 2009 in words agent agents author Ben Leto Bulgakov classic death Death of the Novelist fed up first first time author frustration give giving history letter literary literature manuscript Mikhail no novel novelist novels pile print published publisher quotation quote rejection rejection letter Russian similar slip slush submission template The Master and Margarita time transgressional transgressive unsolicited up writer Writing
Yes, he read it all right. He looked at me as if I had a swollen cheek, looked sidelong into the corner, and even tittered in embarrassment. He crumpled the manuscript needlessly and grunted. The questions he asked seemed crazy to me. Saying nothing...
- Death of the Novelist #4 on Jul 11, 2009 in words affect art become copy copycat creepy develop dull duplicate everything false film grow identity imitate imitation imperfect intelligent learn life literature mimic misunderstand music pretend pretense repeat replicate rip off same show skindeep stalker steal stole stolen superficial theft TV unintelligent veneer
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- Death of the Novelist #3 on Jul 3, 2009 in words balance Battlestar Galacatica Bear McCreary beautiful breathtaking classical content contentment Cylon future happiness happy harmony human humanity hynotising hyponitised life music novel order OST passacaglia peace perfect sci fi score simple sounds soundtrack stories symphony The Shape of Things to Come TV write Writing
I doubt my ability to ever capture in words the beauty this does in music.
- Death of the Novelist #2 on Jun 15, 2009 in words 9 to 5 abandon abandoned adventure agent agents author Beasts of the field Ben Leto cease compulsion Death of the Novelist finish finished first first time author friends gave give giving impossible literary lost love no normal life novel novelist novels pile pressure print published publisher rejection rejection letter slip slush spark stop submission surrender time up urge waste wasted writer Writing
One day, someone might even ask why I stopped. I’ll reply that I found all the people I wanted to share the world I saw with.
- Death of the Novelist #1 on Jun 2, 2009 in novels agent agents author Beasts of the field Ben Leto Bernard Black Black Books Death of the Novelist Dylan Moran first first time author funny give giving horror laugh. comedy letter literary manuscript no novel novelist pile piss midget print published publisher rejection rejection letter slip slush submission template time transgressional transgressive unsolicited up writer Writing
And the award for least effort put into a rejection response goes to… It almost makes me look back through rose-tinted specs at ‘Dear ……………………….’; a form of address which always...
- In Plain Sight on May 30, 2009 in tim the sheep annoying arrogance awareness bed big-headed bored boring different genipode genius gherkin goldfish hubris intelligence intelligent noise others paranoia pig pompous roses schizotypal self-important special supercillious superior superiority this is a war
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- Passacaglia on May 22, 2009 in thoughts 22 B B13 beautiful beauty coincidence content contentment death destiny everyday fantastical fate God happiness happy holistic holisticity interconnectedness Jung life love magic Magician major key mundane music numerology obvious passacaglia plain sight synchronicity tarot thirteen twenty two universe variations
I feel connected. Again I see the number 22, everywhere, much like I once saw combinations of B and 13. Sometimes I still do. I finally took the time to look it up – connotations of Revelation and a conjunction of the mundane and the fantastica...
