The Black Dog
Blog URL http://www.strayblackdog.co.uk/
Located Farnham, Surrey United Kingdom
Tags depression, medication, suicide, bi-polar, psychotherapy, counselling, therapy
Thoughts, despairs and treatments of an experienced depressive. This blog aims to explain the everyday experiences, medical treatments, medication side effects, emotions and thoughts of a middle aged man who has been a depressive for 25 years
Latest Blog Posts
- Fragility, demons.....what if? on Jun 15, 2009
Mostly I look fine. Well, ok I suppose a lot of the time I appear mournful as though the world is slowing down, colour slowly leeching from the vista, being replaced with shades of grey. Still the conveyor belt whirls away attempting to carry me alon...
- Mental health team on Jun 12, 2009
Some while ago my doctor referred me to the area mental health team. Well more accurately he referred me many times, the problem being that they ignored him. Apparently after passing them some of my notes and all of his concerns, he 'pleaded' with th...
- I'm back on Jun 9, 2009
Hey.. I'm back.I couldn't seem to write for quite a while. During April, I had a particularly bad time and I didn't feel like I could write about it.Still I am back now, albeit on twice the dose of Mirtazapine. I seem to have emerged, returned back f...
- Perhaps a bit better...for now on Mar 13, 2009
Here is no water but only rock Rock and no water and the sandy road The road winding above among the mountains Which are mountains of rock without water If there were water we should stop and drink Amongst the rock one cannot stop or think...
- Blinded...lonely. on Mar 1, 2009
I have not posted for a week; it has been difficult to write.Today I try not to cry for if I start I fear that I will not stop.Yesterday, when I awoke, I found that I had lost nearly all of my sight in my left eye. An urgent appointment with the opti...
- Trapped on Feb 22, 2009
I do not feel capable of facing anything or anyone.My mind is empty, I am trapped inside a self imposed cage. The outside is dark and occasionaly curious onlookers peer at me, surprised at my non-conformist attitude. A crushing weight presses relentl...
- Sadness in the silence... on Feb 17, 2009
Fairly obvious the improved mood would not last. Once again I am held in depression's light grasp. Slowly like a fading picture, the world gently turns grey; all colour and joy draining as though a vital artery has been lanced.Slowly in my mind, it h...
